On my own

Josh’s mom and my grandma have been in town for the past week helping us with the twins. They just left and now I’m wondering just how I am going to do this on my own.

I feel like everyone I meet or encounter (other than my family and friends) wants me to be a failure. Everyone I meet says “Do you have help? There’s no way you can do it on your own.” They also add the low blows in there like “You’ll never get back into shape after having twins.” Really. Is that necessary? How about just looking at me and saying, “Wow, you are blessed and you are going to be great.” Josh says it’s their own insecurities talking, and just because they couldn’t do it, or had a hard time doing it, they are projecting that on me. He is right, but it just hits home when people imply that I am not capable of taking care of my children.

I really feel like I’m going to be fine. I’m the worlds best multi-tasker. I feel like I’m pretty patient. And I’ve been through this before, so I sort of know what to expect. This time, I just have 2 newborns instead of 1.

Call me crazy, but I’m really looking forward to this experience. I just love these little guys. They are amazing and Aeriella is such a sweet big sister. Josh even said to me (which is secretly my most favorite compliment he’s ever given me) “Aerie’s so sweet because you are.” I thought that was adorable and it made my heart smile 🙂 But it also reminds me of a gift that was given to us by the MacReady family. It is a rock, and on it says “What our children see in the world depends on what we show them.” That saying is so true. It’s my inspiration every day to be the best I can be and show my kids how to do the same.


Aeriella Vaughn Ryer

Just a little introduction to beautiful daughter, Aeriella. I’m sure I will be talking about her plenty in future posts. She is 18 months old in this picture and was about 17 1/2 months old when the twins were born.

She’s amazing. She started walking at 8 months, knows her ABC’s, can count to 10 and we are now working on perfecting her colors and shapes. She’s such an awesome, fun and incredibly sweet little girl. She is home with me as opposed to going to daycare and I feel so privileged to be able to teach her these things on my own. It’s such a joy to watch her learn and grow, and to be present for all of her “firsts.”


Twins are here!!

First, let me start by saying… What an amazing, beautiful, miracle to carry and give birth to twins. I am just so overwhelmed with so many emotions, but one simple word to sum it all up is blessed!My water broke around 7am on Monday. It wasn’t until 9am that I decided to head into the hospital. I wasn’t quite sure if it was the real thing our not, and if it was, I had some prepping to do. I had to make some meals for Aerie to have while I was in the hospital. I wanted to make sure all the laundry was done. I made a few meals for Josh. Geez, it was Monday morning and that’s when I was planning on making all of our meals for the week. Bad timing, boys!

Anyway, I drove myself to the hospital during morning rush hour. Smart. I didn’t want to get a sitter for Aerie in case it was a false alarm. When I got to the hospital, they confirmed that my water did break, and I was about to have these babies. I called Josh, told him to get down to the hospital, and David was a life saver in leaving work to watch Aerie.

Long story short, I was admitted to triage a little after 10am and Rockson James was born at 12:43pm weighing 6lbs 7oz, 19in long, and Gage Alexander was born at 12:46pm, also weighing 6lbs 7oz, and 19 3/4in long. (Aerie was also born during the “lunch” hour at 12:23pm 🙂 )They are perfect. Absolutely perfect.

I was 37weeks 4 days along when they were delivered. I am so happy to have made it that long, and very lucky to have such an easy pregnancy. The boys are completely healthy, had no NICU time or nursery time, and were discharged with me. We are so fortunate.

Now the fun starts. I’m now a mother of 3 children under 1 1/2 years old! Let’s see if I can do this!